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Writer's Block

I usually have great ideas to write about especially if I am not under any pressure. Writer's block is horrible. I've had it at times, especially when I am busy or distracted. It's rare that it happens to me. 
What if I finally published a novel? It became popular and fans wanted a sequel. My anxiety would kick in like a huge block of ice, blocking my flow. What if I disappoint my fans? What if I can't repeat my previous success? Doubt will eventually lead to writer's block. Years go by and I still haven't published anything. Everyday I open up my computer and stare at a blank screen. I distract myself by going to Reddit or Twitter and discuss things like feminism in Star Wars and the worst sunburn I've ever had. 
One day I decide that I need to take my writing seriously. I put on some headphones and play white noise to try to clear my head while walking through a city park. The static masks the sounds of life and I am able to sit on a bench and clear my mi…

Brown Noise, White Noise

I only learned about brown noise a couple of days ago. I've heard of white noise. I thought it was a low level constant background noise like a fan or a water fountain. My mother got everyone in my family addicted to turning on  a fan in the background to help us sleep. She always called it "white noise"

I just learned that there are different colors of noise. There are white, brown, pink, blue, black noises officially recognized by the FCC. There are other informal noises like gray, red, and violet. The sounds are useful in masking distracting sounds and are supposed to help you concentrate and sleep.
I've had trouble sleeping lately so I wanted to try it out. I tried using a brown noise video from YouTube. I slept very deep for an hour and then woke up. Turns out I later found out that the video pauses on the hour mark and that is what woke me up. Too bad because the sound did help me out with my anxiety. I get scared at night and every little noise is amplified 1…

STUFF Clogging My Mind

I haven't blogged in a while. I never made it big in blogging and I never found an audience. I gave up and instead used Twitter as a way to express myself. I primarily used Twitter for about four years and even had my own little community. I had a few major retweets but was never famous or anything. I kept myself anonymous because I didn't want attention. I just wanted to express my feelings. A month ago I quit and it was one of the best decisions I've made.

It was popular last year to say that 2016 was the worst year ever! It was a very strange year for me! I went through many challenges, new baby, c section, deployment, teenagers, a move, and ended the year losing my grandfather, I went into a deep depression and realized that I was spending sometimes 6-8 hours arguing with people on Twitter. I knew that couldn't help my depressed mood so I decided one day to quit. By day three I felt like a new person. I had more energy and I no longer felt hopeless. Instead of wast…