The Happy Homemaker

This year has been a particularly rough year. I have spent most of the year alone raising three children while my husband pursued career goals. This after almost a year of unemployment. We have had bronchitis, influenza (the 2 week kind), and strep throat. Then the dog I took care of as a puppy died from a snake bite to the head. I was anxious because I thought my father was going to tell me that my grandmother died. I had a panic attack and almost made myself ill.

I had terrible chest pains and discovered I had a infection and needed antibiotics. I am now on my second round of antibiotics.

Last week I found out my grandmother did die. She was almost 88 years old and was in a lot of pain. I have never met someone more at peace with their life, who was ready to pass on from this life. I should be happy for her, but I found myself a wreck. I took the kids to Alabama and went to her funeral in Tennessee where she was buried next to my grandfather who passed away in 2005. I never showed much emotion and put on a good face. I enjoyed being with my family. That was exactly what I needed. I came back home safely. I am now finally able to grieve for my grandmother. I knew her well and as a became an adult we became better friends. She was always about having fun. She always took us swimming and taught us how to play tennis. She never taught me her favortie game of bridge but we would often play Uno. She would always buy me clothing whenever I visited. She loved to sing songs and talk about her days as a girl scout leader. She played piano and loved to eat out. She spent her life serving her community. She is a great example of someone who takes action rather than one who sits in the background and complains.

She was a great example to me.

I had a lot to go through this year, mostly by myself. I hope that my husband will make it up to me. I don’t wish for any gifts, I just want a break and a nice long nap!